Poetry helps me understand complex emotions amid chaos.
Following are my poems written during this isolation season- starting with the most recent.
I'd recommend writing a poem to anyone.
It unwinds the mind.
4.27.20
Anxiety Assessed
Sun awoke said, “Hello.”
Bird symphony another day,
In this hazy way.
Nature’s token dipped into hear—
My soul has spoken.
Heavy breeze,
Morphing me with the trees.
Gopher nibble,
Giving silence a nimble place
To rest my thoughts.
Nothing is required.
When the world has stopped.
4.27.20
Is it the unnecessary caffeine?
Or the uncertain pain?
Or my continual inability to make eggs?
Skimming my brain
Dreading my thoughts.
Vitamin D:
After I race the clock
To finish the wash
Sanitize the sinks
Ponder my thoughts.
Am I ready? Will you see through me? Let go and move me?
Because I’m not good enough? Remind me it's all in my head.
No words you ever said.
Is it selfish? Better in a feline infested
One room cottage—with a garden?
I’m an amateur,
Of that I am sure.
Wannabes fly by.
Leave me with one trickle in the eye.
Maybe nothing is good enough.
How far does my reward system get me? A few likes and freckles
Equals inches stepped
While all I’m seeing is miles to go.
Looking at the distance
When right in front of me is all I'll ever know.
4.26.20
Rose petals fogging up my glass.
Words I can’t express,
Tantrums never had.
Words misspoken: I don’t want to give birth,
During Covid.
Just grandiose thinking now knocked down,
My hole in the ground can’t match
The height of their plans.
My silence in sadness,
Cause nothing to control.
Nothing to savor,
When left all alone.
Steam away the excess,
Breath in the sentence.
Rose petals left
When the waves take my entrance.
4.25.20
One pill down,
Stockpile—
No solutions found.
My love in a cookie,
All that it can be—
When nothing is free.
Nothing more for the poor.
Nothings right with new waves outside.
Up the slope,
Down will we ever go!
Watch Georgia,
The other state,
Following their own way.
Privatize mail? It seems unjust.
Why must our rights be our cause?
When we yell—anger applauds.
Dumbo like Flaws
Corrupt entertainment,
Energy bat,
Sucking the hours of what we have.
Dissolve,
Dissolve my day,
Dissolve meaning to stay.
Just one pill makes the pain go away.
4.23.20
Flowers on my mind.
Okay to be wrong this time.
My love’s hand in mine.
Bronchial solutions
Capitalism gone splat.
Going places without moving.
Abundance without motion.
From chaos to insanity:
Have you lost your way?
Drink down your disinfectant
Cleanse some bodies away.
Into the ground
As misleading direction resounds.
A few hours in deception
Can change a whole town.
A life, a breath,
Lost moments to connect.
The screen way. The only way.
Letters gone postal
Count down ‘til we have
A reason to come back.
Responsibility giving
To where we came from.
Meaning to what we have,
Purpose to what we’ve done.
4.20.20
Each leaf falling,
Its own unique way.
Simple back and forth flutter,
Down the spacious route of time.
Ticking energy always running out.
Divine? Just unwind.
It’s okay to doubt.
Consider a new route.
As body in spirit.
We elegantly glide.
Passage to the wise.
The rest will realize—
The last ones out,
Weren’t considering how.
Visitations from antimatter,
Space taken, Collide in our path.
Searching inclination
Of your being’s sensations.
Healthy habit to give what you have.
Honest to sublime:
You are right on time.
4.17.20
Pain you come,
Pain you sway,
Sometimes you stay all day.
Or all night
Just to fright.
Brain overdrive
Lingering on why.
Desperate how
An ease can help:
Turmeric
Nettle
Moringa
Tea.
Remember how to sip with glee.
Been poor before
In wallet and health
Sometimes the best
Is when you
Cry out for help.
Abundance gives
Ask it how.
4.16.20
Nothing in grasp,
Yet evenly we have come,
Before the feet
Of the one.
Ourselves
Incarnate
Holy state
Holy hell
Rising to meet our fate.
Lose yourself
Your mind, your sun
Until breath is done.
4.15.20
Drifting away to better days,
Brighter smiles,
More escapes.
Back at home
One less dollar
Keeping us in.
Louder laughter
From facing our dark sides.
Tough spots
Accepting what we’re not.
Forgiving helps.
Strength as an ocean
How deep is your well?
Days numbered--
Just to track they happened.
Time elusive; gained and obtuse.
Losing when you fall
Into repetitive motion
Without movement.
Searching for meanings
In body and mind.
Accept spirit—
You need stillness
To hear it.
4.14.20
Everyone lookin’ at me like I’m famous,
Yet, here I am aimless.
Dark night of the soul?
Try dark knight of the sun.
It’s like some underworld kind of fun.
A shadow self,
Back from hell,
Deeper reach into
Pain’s endless dream.
Hope only in the heat,
Belief in the breeze,
Joy in the walk,
Of ticked time inside
Hermits hideout.
Eventually we sprout.
How deep is my soil?
I'll swallow and toil.
Big gulp to ask--
Just born to be wild.
4.13.20
Depth of Joy
Showing up in Sorrow.
Pray for tomorrow.
In a way, all time borrowed.
A flash of what you will have.
If you see through pain,
There can be fire in rain.
Heat after ice.
Let nothing stop you
From opening your eyes.
Step back
See depth from both sides.
No joy without sorrow
And no sorrow without joy.
Lift off, haphazard
And fly.
4.12.20
The bees in the field
Fighting me for daffodils.
If all is meaningless then Why am I here?
Resurrection unclear.
Anger at the sound,
Hating holidays all year round.
Hard to praise,
When the only thing certain is breath.
No eggs to break.
Making them wait,
So, I can stop my hate,
I need to forget, but how?
I can’t even explain,
The depth of this pain. Try not to think
But tears come any way.
I want to make clear,
Just cut the ties
Of other spirits that hide.
Spinning a circle free
Pretending to be—
Happy.
4.9.20
Lose respect,
Lose connection
Not trying to make you hurt
Just need my own heaven
Done being normal,
Creator won’t have it.
Who do I need to be? Honest, true self,
Guilt free tales
Of living full sail.
I knew love would be,
Shared hibernation
A stay home vacation.
A work together
To create combined masterpiece
Of all the odds and ends
Left of you and me.
Built together again
Through new eyes to see.
Wider, expanse of
All we could ever have.
4.7.20
With death we dance,
Our fragile hands,
Wondering why
Sweeping the sky.
Our small feet
Tip toeing on beat.
How long is infinite? From space we see,
Expansion to nothing.
Beyond a god,
Or extraterrestrial life,
How do we make contact to the other side?
Consider these dimensions:
Death within a sphere,
What happens there… and here? All planes through the hole in space-
Out another place-
See you in the next.
Tribal as infinity.
Find your mates
Soul life called by name.
Welcome to the death trap
Of life that goes on forever.
4.6.20
Finally, joy came to play.
Sing for yourself.
Empty well to an overflowing spring.
Releasing tension with vibration.
Only clarity can see.
Release, release
Our bodies scream.
In one place, listen, it’s all within.
Movers and shakers
Cult ritual makers,
Release, release.
How much can you be
With only: spirit, body and mind.
Leaving the past behind
By diving in deep.
Let go, release,
You CAN be who you want to be.
4.3.20
Perfect will happen…
Never.
Said Logic to Mentality.
No perfect way
To live this life.
No set rituals
Stir the ocean.
It’s a rotation,
A circle to the end,
And then
It happens again.
Between the gold dust
And the stars
What part of this time
Gets applause?
4.1.20
Karma Alarm: To send you on.
Morbid faith
In eternal grace.
Learn today
How to run this race.
Not a takeover,
A truth embrace
To save.
Life is great.
I’m terrified to say,
Face your fears,
We are going all the way.
4.1.20 (We are all learning)
Oh, you’re going crazy? Well, it only gets worse.
Make decisions
To save yourself.
This isn’t to hurt you.
This is to protect you.
I can’t feel about your decisions.
Only my own.
No on is responsible for my joy,
But me.
I can choose to be angry,
Or I can choose to see.
I’m sorry I caused you pain,
By making you see: What is the need? What is the truth? All you can do is
Protect you.
Together, apart
Good thing we globalized
Right on time.
Twist of fate,
Hometown tornado.
Goodbye tonight
In my dreams
I’ll see ya later.
There are so many cries
From the other side.
The pain is deep
In you
In me
Altogether set free.
This could be
Our new reality.
Step up,
From believing in Hell for eternity.
Our souls are one,
Bodies weak
The only place
Is stronger to be.
3.31.20
We are all alone,
Together.
The time has come to
Face our minds.
How to fill
Empty space
With no time to waste
No way in,
But through the mire
And disgust of what
We’ve become. The dark side
Everyday has night.
Who are you,
Stuck inside?
Face to face,
You no longer can hide.
Who are you? Why are you? What are you? How have you become
someone you love?
No time like the present
To say no to hesitant.
Brain unwind,
Painful memories
Of mine.
Fear incline,
Holistic excavate
For my future sake.
3.27.20
Cheating death
Bath water overhead.
Roses to speak
When brain is left
Incomplete.
Listening to myself
When all unwell.
Giving into peace,
Tear dropped
Flickered flame,
Forget your name.
Drip single into uncertain.
Death and life mingle.
I’m alive, but hurtin’
Take a breath and
Close the curtain.
3.20.20
I’ll think about tomorrow
When I wake up then.
Now settle in
Time the friend. What you did;
All undone.
Clasp the direction
Of the sun.
Soak the breeze,
Fall on your knees,
Thankful explore.
You are more
Than what you do,
You are helping you.
3.19.20
Today I am sad.
Telling myself all
The things I’ve done wrong
All the ways I could've gone.
But now I’m here
With fear.
Travel halt,
Dog fallout,
Job stop,
Economy drop.
Loved ones
Separate
From hate.
But, with Covid
Time could be too late.
Smile high
Thankful & alive.
Peace and Love, Amma